It is quite clear that things are changing around NN on the Run… and they have been for a while. It’s evident via the archives that I’ve been posting less and less. My camera has gotten very little use since the start of 2011, and because I haven’t been capturing my morning oatmeal, baking recipes, and quick quinoa bowls, there has been more talk about running and life, and minimal mentions about food.
I never promised my blog would be a “what I eat daily dairy.” Though, I have made a few promises in the past that I would have reading material for y’all every day [old post!], or that you’d “be seeing more of me soon.”
I l-o-v-e blogging. Don’t think that because of my lack of posting that I don’t still run through my bookmarked Daily Blogs folder first thing ev-er-y single morning as I eat my steel cut oatmeal and first dose of nut butter… because I sure do!
I do not want this post to just be one epic excuse/apology for my blogging absence. I don’t think there’s anything to excuse myself from or apologize for, truth be told.
In the past 6 months or so, I have changed. Talking to my mom the other night, I realized that my blog is a reflection of the positive changes in my life. Though my blog has always been a place of personal freedom and a canvas to express the real me, it was also a reinforcement of my anal, uptight tendencies as I attempted to blog daily with “perfect” pictures, flawless format, and grade A grammar.
I guess you could say that although I blogged because I wanted to, doing so, nonetheless, added extra pressure on my already highly-stressed mind. I’ve done a lot of work on reducing worry, stress, and anxiety in my life recently, and I have worked equally as hard to substitute it with adventure, spontaneity and laughter.
Without beating around the bush any longer, I suppose I could say that the nights I used to stay up late editing blog posts a dozen times while simultaneously stressing about studying for a chemistry exam and reading about the exciting lives of virtual friends, are now late nights socializing with real friends… and yes, sometimes skimming recipes as I sip a cup of tea.
I hope I haven’t caused you to think that I’m a completely changed person. No, no no… I am still Mama Hill, the nutrition nut on the run. My fridge is still stocked with lentils, real butter, spinach, organic almond milk, chia and flax; I still find the time to bake when I come across a recipe like banana apple date bread; I still eat my weight in nuts and dark chocolate =/
Ultimately, I’d like to find the balance between blogging consistently while living the happy, satisfying, and successful life I dream of. I am only 21 years
old young, however, and I’m not afraid to say that I don’t have life all figured out. Does anyone!?
Change is inevitable. NN on the Run can’t stay the same forever, just as my life, my body, and my thoughts are not the same with each new day. Rather than beating myself up for not making my blog the high-traffic, money-making, recipe encyclopedia that it could potentially be, I’m accepting it for what it is. Change = growth = strength… strength to accept, to believe, to carry on each and every day.