Yesterday was a rather rotten day. Instead of ranting about it to ya’ll, I decided to clear my mind from my restless thoughts, run to the Red Box, rent Dear John for $1, and curl up in my bed with a sweet, romantic movie and tub of granola my mama made for me. It was a wonderful escape while it lasted, but, unfortunately, movies don’t last forever. When I turned the movie off, my life turned back on.

Normally, this isn’t such a horrible thing; however, when you’re feeling lost in your own world – you don’t have a map, Google directions, or a GPS telling you what turn to make next [in an Australian accent] – your uncertainty increases and the smiling decreases.

Those who know me well can tell those of you who may now be just learning of my existence, that I do well with a plan… and not so well without one. I organize obsessively, think about the future unnecessarily, and prefer each day to have a purpose. That being said, I’ve been out of school 16 days now, and for those 16 days, I’ve been working on mapping out the rest of my summer – dispersing my resume as if it were Halloween candy, chatting with friends about travels – and I still have no sense of direction. It makes it more difficult when I am not even entirely sure what I want to do – oh bother. This is the point where a map of Hillary’s Life is suppose to fall from the sky and direct me to my next destination. I know… far fetched.

The dilemma continues: My mighty special birthday is in two weeks, I have a pretty little party dress hanging patiently in my closet, and no job to get me to where I’d like to go. I have a feeling I’ll be headed West this upcoming week, to a place that seems to settle almost anything. It is there I will find the golden road… come with me, won’t you?

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On the topic of being lost, directionless, and blatantly unsure, let’s talk about my blog. I love my little corner in cyber space, I love writing, I LOVE food, I love learning [about food], and I love you all for embracing my passion(s)… BUT, I’m at a place where I feel as though I’ve sort of gone off tangent from the thesis of my blog. Wait… what thesis? My point exactly. If you read my ramble above, you know I function through order. I have hopes that this blog of mine will bring me opportunities. I want to establish myself in this healthy living community that I am so fortunate to have found; I just haven’t decided what route I want to take – the Carrots ‘N’ Cake/Eat Live Run/KERF method, the Joy the Baker method, or something unique all of my own that hasn’t dawned on me yet.

“Thesis” Thoughts:

(a) Daily Eats/Exercise/Healthy Life Blog

(b) Culinary Photography

(c) Nothing but nutrition.

(d) All of the above.

(e) None of the above.

(f) I don’t know.

Because I don’t know much of anything at the moment, I’ll tantalize your taste buds with yesterday’s breakfast:

(2) coconut carrot quinoa muffins + coconut butter

Well,  my mental writing capacity has reached its limit for the evening. I’ll have to leave my eats [and recipes!] for another time. I’ll be back… hopefully with a cheerier attitude and a few more pieces to the puzzle of my life : )

Goodnight, friends.